I have trouble sometimes when changes in life come unsuspectingly. It’s like you’re in a time of comfort and contentment and then life throws you a breaking ball you wouldn’t believe. Then some changes happen when you expect them. My mom recently got married. July 4th. It was great. What was lifechanging was that I aquired a new dad in one day. I mean, he sort of has been a father figure for a while now but on this day it was official. I could actually call him dad, if I wanted. And I do want to. So now I call him dad sometimes and by his name other times.

Here’s the unsuspecting life thing that happened that, in my head, is as life changing as my new step-dad. My best friend stopped talking to me a few weeks ago. I guess he’s busy. Who knows. I’ve stopped talking to him also. I’ve done this training that let me know that I make up things in my head and believe they’re true even when they might not be. Maybe this whole post is made up in my head and it’s all bullshit. It’s hard not to think about why he’s not responding to my attempts to contact him. So I do and it gets me nowhere. It still gets me to where I’m not talking to him.

I am getting married. It’s going to be the most wonderful day of my existence. My fiance and I want no one but the most important people in our lives to be there. It’s hard to do a guest list and keep it down to a cool 150 people. My best friend is in the wedding. He’s not in it like the normal person is “in” a wedding. He’s the person who will bind us together. He is the minister. When the communication between my minister, my best friend, goes away, I get upset. I will call him.